What’s your comfort zone?

I’m writing this after overcoming some unexpected “resistance”; negative chatter that didn’t want to let up as uncertainties swirled through my mind…

The last blog I posted, Habits – Consistently Inconsistent? felt right, and then it didn’t. Fear and apprehensions intruded upon my mind and I began to question whether it was good enough, I should have said this and not said that…. The ego was slinking about.

I’ve been vigilant with myself about stopping negative self talk, and I noticed the unease of suddenly having such discouraging thoughts. It did get the better of me and I did pull off my last blog. I put it to the fact that because I’ve made writing deadlines for myself, I’ve put undo pressure on myself, I really don’t have to, who says I have to?

The thing is, I don’t have to do anything. I want to. I want to, for what it will make of me. I want to be consistent with my blogs. I want to step out of my comfort zone.

The ego can’t stand it when I ignore it and start to make changes in my life. It represents the undisciplined side of me that wants me to stay silent and small and miserable, whereas my true self wants to express and share and feel joy.

I’ve since done some “tweaking” of my Habits blog and have just re-posted it. I hope you enjoy reading my blogs as much as I enjoy writing them, and thank you for being my external accountability.

Without an audience, ideas remain mere words on a page. – from the movie Mary Shelley, author of Frankenstein

The ego is, therefore, particularly likely to attack you when you react lovingly, because it has evaluated you as unloving and you are going against its judgment. The ego will attack your motives as soon as they become clearly out of accord with its perception of you. – A Course in Miracles, T176